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๑۩۞۩ ∂єνιℓѕ & αиgєℓѕ ๑۩۞۩๑ Hσмє σf вαву "к"๑۩۞۩ωнαт ωσυℓ∂ уσυ ℓιкє ιи тнє вє∂.....A ∂єνιℓ, A αиgєℓ, Oя вσтн? I'm BackHello everyone...... I know I have been away for awhile. Karl and I had been house hunting for awhile. We found a Beautiful house, on a golf course. Very nice neighborhood and great schools. Finally getting settled in. We have been doing painting, so nothing on the walls yet.But still feeling like home. The house is very big compaired to my old house. Its a tri-level,the living room has vaulted ceilings. Four bedrooms, 2 1/2 bath,f amily room,2 car garage. And our back yard looks onto the golf course. We occasualy get a stray ball. The kids are adjusting nicely. I love no longer having to commute to work. Karl and I both only have to drive 5 min to work. Major plus beings gas prices are still rediculous. Well I am gonna close this for now. Keeping it short and sweet.
To much going on.......busy,busy,busy
Hello everyone......I know, I know, WHERE THE HELL HAVE I BEEN?????? Very , very, busy.....BLAH BLAH BLAH. I have been working,spending time with my kids, and last but not least, spending time with my Finace'. We are getting ready to move in October. I am so excited about that. We both work in the same town so we are focusing on moving there. Then the commute for both of us will be very short. I have also been on a bit of a rollercoaster ride with my 10 yr old son. About 4 weeks ago he decided to steal some money from his uncle (my brother). I of course flipped out and grounded him for 3 weeks. And then 1 week after being grounded, he decided to steal money from me. At this point I start thinking there is not just something wrong, But SERIOUSLY WRONG. Well I got to thinking about it and my 10 yr old has been through ALOT of hsit in his life. First of all, his father and I did not have a very good relationship due to the fact that his dad wanted to do drugs. When Jamal (my 10 yr old) was 1, his dad and I split up. I would not allow visitaion due the fathers drug use. Well he went through rehab and cleaned up so visiting started about 6 months later. It went on for awhile, and then dad began to slide backwards. So visiting stopped again. I met my soon to be husband (Alton) and we got married 6 months later. Alton took Jamal as his own and all was good. Well real dad decided to pop back up after getting clean the 2nd time. Jamal was 3 by then, but not very close to his real dad. By this time he had taken to Alton, and Jamal saw his as his dad. Well real dad was of course jealous over this and felt threatened by it. Him and I had many heated dissucions over that. He of course didnt stay clean for long and was right back on the drugs again. Of course the visiting stopped again and I put a restraining order against him. We heard from him no more. As all of you know my marriage came to an end in August 2004. Well at that point Jamal became out of sight out of mind to my ex husband. No visits, no phone calls. So as I am thinking back about all of this I am thinking to my self, My son has been let down alot in his short life. So I had a talk with his Doctor and she refered me to a Counselor. Then my son and I had a talk and I ask him what was bothering him. Basically it came down to him feeling abandoned by the men in his life. Now my son also suffers from ADHD (Attentoion Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) He currently taked medication called Aderal for it. So putting all of that together, the Doctor and I thoug he neede to talk with someone. So we started his first session on July 10th........I actually went better than I had exspected. He still has a long way to go. And there are some things in my parenting that I want to work on to help better my child. So basicaly....life has been kinda busy. Thats an understatment, LMAO........... I plan to update again soon. Sorry for seeming to be in hiding. I will try to be around more often. Everyone have a great week.
Love Baby Karma What Can Happen In Just 1 Yr?I have been going over the past year of my life. And a yr. ago I never would have seen myself here. Where am I you ask......Lets start from the begining........On November 30, 1971 I was born.....To far back to the begining, LOL.
No really, the date today is June 8, 2006. And on this exact day one year ago I was sitting at a point in my life where I wasnt sure what I wanted. At the time I thought I knew, but isnt it always the case that when you look back you realize you didnt have even the slightest clue. I was in what I thought was a relationship. Well some what of one any way. I here in Washington and him in California. Several hundreds of miles between us. Sure we talked on the phone and e mailed every day. But as far as seeing each other, We only did 4 actual times. The last meeting ending in our split. I was devistated and as those of you who visited me at that time remember, I did some pretty pissy, self pitty blogs. Man bashing and all. As time passed, I realized that if that person was ment for me then thats where I would be. I mean its hard for a woman scorned to see the reasons for things in front of her. Isnt it always that we dont want to hear or face when another no longer wants us. I know the feeling but the reality of it all was....there was just to much distance between us. To many changes to make, to make it work. So I rolled around in my self pitty for awhile, had a bad out look on men and relationships. But of course when I was all done being upset and mad. I realized that there is a reason for everything. Even if we dont see the reasons in front of us at the time. So I began talking to and getting close to another on the internet. For some months this person and I got close. There was talk of actually meeting face to face. And as time went on I began to think to myself that I was putting myself right back in the same position I had been in not so far back. A great distance and no real physical prescence. But this time I decided to spark something with someone not a few hundred of miles away but 3,000 to be exact. I had to take a step back and do some soul searching. I never intended to put hurt onto this person, but in the end I did. I decided that I could not sit around and wait for something to happen. I chose to end the long distance relationship, not only trying to spare myself but also the other person. There is alot of details that made it a very difficult situation. Which I will not get into here. Anyways after I decided to end it. I actually met someone local. I thought to myself , never in a million years will this peson be for me. You see I believe in Murphys Law, I never imagined I would find the glove to fit my hand localy. Arent all the good ones suppose to in another state or country for that matter. It always seems to work out that way. Anyways,getting to the point here. This man and I met......and OMG, he was georgeous, local, funny, local, smart, local, compassionate, and did I mention LOCAL! We began to spend time together, alot of time. It took a minute before I introduced him to my chilren. I am very funny about anyone meeting my children. He and my kids hit it off. We have spent alot more time together, and in the 4 months we have been seeing each other, it has been heaven. A person can not control who they fall in love with. You cant chain the heart. It guides you and you as a zombie, follow it. Sometimes it scornes you and other times it sets you free. I am flying high, my feet never touch the ground. We are now planning to move in together in September, and a wedding to start planning for next summer. Of all the things that we go through in life, they make us who we are. I was asked once...."Would you ever change anything in you past, good or bad"? My answer was "NO, I believe we have to go through the bad to appreciate the good". Besides, everything I have endured has made me who I am.
Love Baby Karma A poem worth readingFootprints in the Sand
by Mary Stevenson
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was
walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, You said that once I decided to follow you, You'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me." The Lord replied, "My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I Carried You."  Love Baby "K" |
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